cold and tired
Mood:  a-ok
Topic: Ordinary Life
nothing much happened at school today, er yesterday. Spence was all bummed, cuz the guy she likes is bi. Who woulda guessed it. omg, im tired.

I got home and me and danny went thrift shopping. I got a belt, a glove, and some other things, thrift shops are so kickass

I went to see the incredibles with kristina and emilee and her friends. It was a good movie. Omg, I just adore pixar animation movies. They are so great. Me and Kris kept talking about how you could see the man superhero's packages thru their suits. Some guys she knew were there. Chris was ignoring us and Seth was softspoken and nerdy.

Aaron was there buying tickets when i left. There was this one moment where we both like, turned and looked at each other. It was weird, but I don't really care, since I'm effing tired and aaron is out of my life for good. I came home and got on here, and chilled with the awesome possum kristina. I talked to spence some too.

so tired, I have to finish all of my homework tomorrow, er today and then go ice skating in like exactly 12 hours from now. Im tired. G'night. I'm gonna dress up real cool for tomorrow, and I gotta go potty.

I love you guys

I'm outie

-bojangles

Start a REVOLUTION!
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: "Mr. Roboto" by Styx I have problems
Topic: Dreams
I had a weirdo dream, as if the topic didn't let you know.

I was in like, what looked to be my old 7th grade science class, except J.C. was there, and of course he was paying me no mind. I was sitting there and suddenly he came up behind me quoting some amorous line about himself that I had said, which I can't remember. He sounded amused and surprised. I had been turned around so I didn't see him coming. Suddenly his entire mood changed, like he was in love with me too. It was nice. Of course I woke up to reality. I wasn't pissed or anything because I'm used to these dreams, that tease me so. It was funny, when I got up, I like stumbled everywhere.

Today I'm dressed as a revolutionary. Kinda like when a group of teens revolts against the government. At least I think so. Black shirt, blue jeans with an irish flag safety pinned on, one black glove and a dark green sash I improvised from a tie and my Fender guitar pin. I have my camo hat to wear with it too. I feel like overturning a government, Oh YEA!

"Night creatures calling the dancers to walk in their masquerade."

Thats my favorite line of thriller. I asked matt about his cds. He likes linkin park. I have to admit, LP is popular, but I don't like them all that much. They're good, but not one of my favourites. I spell all european. Matt isn't gonna be here today, neither is danny. I forgot and told matt I'd see him today on the phone last night, and he was like "wait.." and I was like "OH YEA! you won't be here, you can call me in the afternoon." He was like "I'll miss you." ^^ I can't help but be a little moved. One side of me is saying "FALL IN LOVE WITH HIM!" and the other side is saying "WTF? NO!" and even if the first side one, I wouldn't know how to fall in love with him because you can't make yourself do such a thing. Gawd. I guess I'll just have to get together with my revolutionary buddies and jump on top of a lunch table and yell "NADER". It works for everything else.

I'm off to hell, er school, see you guys later.

I'm so outie

-bojangles

stupid blog
Mood:  irritated
Topic: Ordinary Life
gosh, stupid blog, why can't it have a recovery thing on it, in case i get retarded and exit out of it. oh well

the guy who sits behind me in math, steven i think, he's cool, he was the one who knew all about queen, and even knew about innuendo. He like, looked at my anime magazine today and told me how much he loved DBZ and inuyasha, lol, he seems really cool. But he's not physically my type, I wish he was. *sigh*

mom was sposed to pick me up from debate, but i didnt stay, then i tried to call her cell which she leaves off all the time and didnt reach her, so shes probably going to be pissed at me.

I can't believe how much I typed, and how it closed it out. That is so sad. I had a lot of good stuff to say too. *sob* Today was pretty boring, I had mr. morozzi as sub in math, yea, the psycho china-obsessed sub, but he didnt talk about china, he just gave us a quiz. I have a shitload to study for science, oh how i hate it.

Man I'm hungry, moms gonna be so pissed. I need to start running again.

MY BIRTHDAY IS IN ONE WEEK! WOOOOOOOOO! I'm so excited.

Wesley is such a dick head. I told him I invited adam and he's like "adam's a loser, im not coming now." Yea, like wesleys really all that popular to start with, wesley's a fuckin loser. I was like "ok fine then wesley, i dont care if you dont come." he sounded like he wanted to make it look like I really wanted him to come, and then we got in an argument, and we sounded like a married couple again. Omg we always do, but the argument was a friendly one. Then he went to the back of the bus and started talking to bryan about me. Bryan needs to shut the fuck up about me inviting hannah. I don't even know her, and I'm not inviting her to my party, expecting her to get me a present when I dont even know her. Bryan just wants me to invite her so he can flirt with her. Do it on your own time buddy.

I need to chill, and eat, and do the bitch-ass homework. I was hoping for a more interesting entry, but since I flushed it all, nevermind.

I'm outie

bojangles=pissed

Vh1's Behind The Candidate: Nader....and his Taters
Mood:  lyrical
Now Playing: "Mr.Roboto" by Styx AGAIN! AGAIN!
Topic: Ordinary Life
THIS ENTRY IS DEVOTED TO KRISTINA COX WHO IS THE AWESOMEST POSSUM EVER!

omg, I had some extra time, so I decided to do today's entry today. Don't get used to it.

"secret, secret, I've got a secret!"

Math class was so lame. I felt like I was in sixteen candles, and someone had the camera on me being bored. So I did some really good bored poses. Oh yes. Afterwards I stopped by the wall, the new hangout danny has established between 1st and 2nd. It's very awesome. Adam and Jenn's going-out hood continues to be adorable in my eyes. *tries to hold back urge to pinch adam's cheeks*

"Now Everyone can see, my true identity, I'm KILROY!"

Who the hell is kilroy? I don't know, it's in the song. History was kind of boring, (omg I should so be sleeping right now) I had josh to talk to, I do everyday. He's really cool. The funny thing is, he's in my gym class, and we never talk in there, but we did today, which was cool. I seriously wonder if he likes me. I saw his brother, who looked like him. Its so hilarious to see siblings together, because they look so much alike. I LOVE it! lol, Gym wasn't too bad, I didn't participate AGAIN, and coach herbek didn't deduct my grade AGAIN because he is so damn awesome *hugs herby* I love coach herbek, he never makes me do anything.

omg, and science was cool cuz we didnt have a test

GOTTA GO, OH SHIT, MOM'S HOME, NO SHOWER!

-bojangles

VOTE NADER!

NADER TATERS!

Domo arigato, Mr. Roboto Mata ah-oo hima de! Domo arigato, Mr. Roboto, Himitsu wo shiri tai!
Mood:  cool
Now Playing: "Mr. Roboto" by Styx
Topic: Adventure
omg, this song is AWESOME! It makes me so happy, i don't know why

"The problem's plain to see, too much technology, machines to save our lives, machines dehumanize."

I've just been on an 80's techno kick I guess, it's so much fun though, and funky too. Yep!

Gawd, I sound like an effin cheerleader. Friday, I went home with sam, and we rode up to her aunt Debbie's up in charlotte. We stop at a bunch of rest stops and we "pimped". It was fun.

"girl, I seen you in clubs, just hangin' out and dancin', you give you number to every man you see, you never come home at night because you're out romancin', I wish you'd bring some of your love home to me."

^^So anyways, we finally got to charlotte at like 10 or something, and we watched part of nightmare on elm street, which SUCKED! Omg, scary movies definately relate to era, I mean, scary movies from the 50's and junk are like completely retarded to us, but back then, people thought they were really scary. It's kind of like art. I consider horror an art, but I can't say I've indulged in much of it. Me and sam passed out on the floor. Sleep was ok, ignoring my sore throat that was coming on from the night before. We woke up pretty early so we could go yardsaling, but Sams aunt Carla's family came and we got ready and we had just enough time to get to the Renaissance festival. It was SO COOL! Oh man, it was exactly like medieval times, I know the theatre crowd would have drooled. I loved the costumes, of course, my fettish. They had the coolest stuff for sale. I ended up getting a shirt that said "lady by day, wench by night" so awesome, and an irish flag. Sam and I got norse alphabet necklaces for me, sam, cassie, danny, and emilee. I got mystery, because knowledge was out, and sam got power, even though she wanted strength. We got danyell destruction(HA!), and cassie insight (of course), and I bought emilee obstacle (teehee). It was so cool. Omg, there was a sword swallower too, we watched him. His performance seemed a bit restrained, and he seemed irritated almost. He was a very friendly, crazy guy. But He didn't act happy. He swallowed one sword that made his adam's apple move back and forth, and he hammered a nail up his nose. Omg, it was cool. Sam and I made friends with the dude selling the norse alphabet necklaces, he told us all about how The sword swallower hated the management, and the crowds he entertained, and how he did cooler stuff, but people just got offended. He had been trying to leave for the last few years but the guys kept offering him more money. It made me feel shitty to think I didn't tell him how awesome he was. I bet if I had gotten his autograph it would've made him feel better. Well, turns out he got offered a job in Australia, so maybe things will get better.

*moment of silence for the sword swallower*

The food was really good. Me and Sam ate a jumungous turkey leg, and we had these chocolate-covered nuts too. Don't say anything... It was good man, and this one jester guy, had a pet rat that had a santa hat and beard on, it was cute. And we watched the joust too. We sat on the bad side of COURSE. We don't know who won, because we left before the second half of the joust. But our guy was cool. The way the festival was set up was so wonderful, like all the little shops, and people singing in the streets and walking right up to you to say "good day, m'lady" It was great. I loved all the shops. They had an entire shop for faeries, with wings and you could even get some ears made. Now that I think about it, I should have got some. *smacks head* oh well. I'll go to a comic con or something and get some. After the festival, we went back to Debbie's and showered and ate dinner. Sam, Krista(sam's cousin), and I got dressed and attempted to go trick or treating, but most of charlotte was trick or treating sunday, so we scrounged for generous houses, and we still got some great stuff. By now I had a full-on cold, and was feelin bad, but not too bad. We went to the Trail of Terror. Omg, it was funny. There were these guys with chainsaws and clown masks on, we made friends with them. I asked the one in overalls if I could touch his chainsaw, omg, and he said "That might be considered illegal." HA! and the other one took off his mask and he was HOT, but short. This kid behind us was freakin' out, and she left, it was like 10 bucks a person to get in man! And you would pay, then wait in line, and the chainsaw clowns came out while you were waiting. They got rid of a lot of people that way, without them even going in the haunted house. Sam was trying to make it less scary, but she was getting all shaky and I was just like *chillin*. She said "WE NEED A MAN IN THE FRONT AND A MAN IN THE BACK" it reminded me of a porno direcctor, teehee. We went in and it wasn't scary. It was kinda weird when we couldnt see where we were going in the smoke, but that was okay, and they had metallica playing in the background, so that made it better. Everytime some guy came up with a chainsaw, josh(sams brother) showed them his scar from where he got cut from a chainsaw at work. It was funny. We went home and passed out. Omg, I woke up like 5 times during the night to go pee. You know when you have to go but you hold it, and then you have to go REAL bad, thats how it was EVERYTIME I woke up, which is impossible, because I didn't drink anything during the night, so how could it have replaced itself? Ah, the mysteries of the universe. We woke up sunday and went back home to sam's house, I changed into my costume and mom picked me and sam up and took us to Cassie's party, which was great. We played some games, and I danced in my turtle costume, which was crazy-awesome. Trick or treating wasn't as fun, because I was feeling the super shitty effects of having a cold, I was so tired. I talked to kris a lot, it was fun. We got back to the house and started to sort our candy. Juli was messin around and sat on adam. Danyell made a gagging noise and ran outside, to "puke". Karen was like "whats going on??" I was like "wtf?" So I was like "er, juli sat on adam's lap, and danyell got grossed out. Then Karen turned it into something how Juli was shaming her by doing such a thing in her house, which was retarded. Then juli was like "wtf, what did I do?" and mrs karen made everyone but juli and danyell go outside, and made juli and danyell stay inside, and they "talked it out". Apparently juli never realized what she was doing and said she would stop. It pissed me off, I think everyone overreacted, juli shouldn't have sat on adam's lap, and I think adam sure-as-hell shouldn't have let her, he's got a gf, but he claims that he and juli are friends, and thats why, and that he told her to get off, and she didnt listen. What a load of shit. I'm sorry to all i'm offending right now, but everyone overreacted, I mean, we could have been a little more out-front with juli about it before we dragged an adult into it. For one thing I think a big deal was made out of something stupid. Yea, so juli stole a bunch of peoples CRUSHES, not boyfriends, not husbands, CRUSHES, and I really don't like how she sits on guys laps and stuff like its no big deal, but, gawd, I don't know, the whole thing pissed me off. I really don't think we should've started a secret alliance thing and not came out and told juli straight up "you're doing this, please stop." W/e, its over now, but that burned my ass, let me tell ya. Why's everything got to be a fuckin soap opera?

well, i have to go, this week has been okay, ignore the fact that I left on a pissy note. W/e I finished all my projects and now I'm just living day by day, I am gonna get back to drawing soon, I need to, I have to.

Remember I love you guys, don't forget it.

I'm outie

-bojangles

HEY, MR. ROBOTO!! ZEN!!

(Domo arigato, Mr Roboto)
Domo arigato, Mr Roboto
Mata ah-oo hima de
Domo arigato, Mr Roboto
Himitsu wo shiri tai

You're wondering who I am
(Secret, secret)
(I've got a secret)
Machine or mannequin
(Secret, secret)
(I've got a secret)
With parts made in Japan
(Secret, secret)
(I've got a secret)
I am the modern man

I've got a secret
I've been hiding
Under my skin
My heart is human
My blood is boiling
My brain IBM
So if you see me
Acting strangely
Don't be surprised
I'm just a man who
Needed someone
And somewhere to hide
To keep me alive
Just keep me alive
Somewhere to hide
To keep me alive

I'm not a robot
Without emotions
I'm not what you see
I've come to help you
With your problems
So we can be free
I'm not a hero
I'm not a saviour
Forget what you know
I'm just a man whose
Circumstances went beyond his control
Beyond my control
We all need control
I need control
We all need control

I am the modren man
(Secret, secret)
(I've got a secret)
Who hides behind a mask
(Secret, secret)
(I've got a secret)
So no one else can see
(Secret, secret)
(I've got a secret)
My true identity

Domo arigato, Mr Roboto
Domo (domo), domo (domo)
Domo arigato, Mr Roboto
Domo (domo), domo (domo)
Domo arigato, Mr Roboto
Domo arigato, Mr Roboto
Domo arigato, Mr Roboto
Domo arigato, Mr Roboto

Thank you very much, Mr Roboto
(Domo arigato, Mr Roboto)
For doing the jobs that nobody wants to
(Domo arigato, Mr Roboto)
And thank you very much, Mr Roboto
(Domo arigato, Mr Roboto)
For helping me escape
(Domo arigato, Mr Roboto)
When I needed to
(Domo arigato, Mr Roboto)
Thank you
(Domo arigato, Mr Roboto)
Thank you
(Domo arigato, Mr Roboto)
Thank you
(Domo arigato, Mr Roboto)
I want to thank you
(Domo arigato, Mr Roboto)
Please, thank you
(Domo arigato, Mr Roboto)
Ooooooooooh
Aaaaaaaaaah

The problem's plain to see
Too much technology
Machines to save our lives
Machines dehumanize

The time has come at last
(Secret, secret)
(I've got a secret)
To throw away this mask
(Secret, secret)
(I've got a secret)
But noweveryone can see
(Secret, secret)
(I've got a secret)
My true identity
I'm Kilroy
Kilroy
Kilroy
Kilroy

So why don't we go, somewhere only we know?
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: "Somewhere only we know" by Keane, oh yea, and "No one knows" Queens of the stoneage, omg RED HEADS=HOT!
Topic: Ordinary Life
"And if you have a minute, why don't we go, talk about it somewhere only we know."

I've been flirting with the idea of returning to a hard copy journal, I was dead-set on it, but I wrote an entry in my old journal and realized I liked this one a lot too. Either way I'll keep writing, but a paper journal would be so much easier to update, yet I couldn't share it with the world in the way that I share this one. But I hide my secrets in this journal, should not all be revealed? I feel the world is not entirely ready for all of my secrets, I don't think it ever will be.

"When you grow up, livin like a good boy oughta, and your mama, takes a shine at her best son, something different, all the girls, they seem to like you, cause you're handsome, like to talk, and a whole lotta fun."

The midterms are over, omg, so happy, I could actually could feel euphoria coming on after I turned it in, the bus ride home would have been overwhelming joy if jacob hadn't been moved back a seat and motivated me to try to get his attention. Gosh, I want to stab him. >< Not really, I won't say what I really want to do to him. Tee hee!

"Now we end up taking the long way home, lookin overdressed and wearin buckets of stale cologne."

Matt is such a sweetie, he calls me everynight, and listens to all the crazy stuff I say, even the double squirrel story, yes, even that one. Plus he can keep an INTERESTING conversation going on his own, not something many boys can do. I've been permanently scarred by my video game conversations with aaron, omg, you can't even mention final fantasy without making me cringe.

THRIILER! OMG! I LOVE THIS SONG!

I think a mix cd is long overdue. Too bad I've got a history project due next week. That actually played a role in my quick loss of euphoria, which I want back, DAMNIT!

"You try to scream, but terror takes the sound before you make it."

This is pure disco-funk-80's goodness. *sigh* I can't live without my music. Omg, yes, I am burning a cd as soon as possible, GAH! I'VE GOT TO WAIT 2 FREAKIN WEEKS!

I don't know what my problem is, I have the weirdest taste in guys, for those of you who don't know it already, I mean, omg, I went out with aaron and It wasn't because I felt sorry for him, something is wrong with me. Do you know that when he asked me out, there was a split second when I had second thoughts, and I was gonna stop and figure out wtf went on, and how he accumulated so many ex girls, then my desperate, naive mind overlooked it and said "yes". W/e, anyways, I think, I'm a tease, you know? I mean, I want to tease guys so much, even If I see a real ugly guy, I'm like "flaunt your stuff and look sexy, just to make him wish he could have you, then draw him in till he asks for it, and say NO." Gawd, that reminds me of a porno, holy crap "MAKE HIM ASK FOR IT!" If I looked like juliette, I'm kinda scared to say I might do what she does. *gasp* Now I'm scared. But, the good lord gave me modest looks I suppose, so that we'd have only one juli to deal with.

That was the most open thing I've said in ahile. But it's the truth. Suddenly I want a red head boyfriend. So we can be like leprechaun lovers or something. HA! that was crazy. How bout, I keep both journal and diary, so everyone is happy.

omg, gay eskimo, bob dylan, that cd is starting to sound really good. Omg, I love freddie mercury so damn much, I swear if he were alive, I'd fall in love with him, even if he was gay, I mean, he did go out with that one barcelona chick right? What about the fat-bottomed girls? If thats the kind he likes then I should be first on his list. lol

I swear, I just want a guy with as much spark and spunk as me, who is horny all the time, but only when he sees me, and who thinks about me all the time, just like I do for him, and who can't sleep at night because he's too excited about seeing me the next day, just like I can't sleep because I'm too excited about seeing him. Pfft, w/e good luck.

Who gives a shit, I mean, If I don't fall in love with someone in high school, colledge will definately be where I find my love. I don't think I've ever met a guy as smart as me that was nice. I may have met one or two smart ones, but they were dick-heads.

"I wear my sunglasses at night, so I can, so I can, keep track of the visions in my eyes."

Thats about All I have to say right now, halloween is this weekend, I'm gonna be a teenage mutant ninja turtle, leonardo to be exact. Emilee is dressing as raphael, sam is dressing as michealangelo, and danny is being donatello. It will be a load of fun, plus I'm going to the renaissance fest with sam this saturday. That will be a lot of fun too. I think all you teenagers who are staying at home giving out candy, you guys suck. Halloween knows no age, sept for if you're like REALLY old, them dude, if everyone went trick or treating, they're be no one to give out candy.

I heard it thru the grapevine that aaron's become a pot-head. I am not surprised, I was actually waiting for him to become one. I guess the amount of braincells you have doesn't matter when you already suck at everything.

If you haven't downloaded it yet, download it NOW! "RAIN MUST FALL" BY QUEEN It is so awesome.

"Play it nice and cool!"

Well, I've said about all thats on my mind.

I love you guys

I'm outie

-bojangles

SURPRISE! ZEN!:
Name this tune:

I can see it in your stars
Life is so exciting
Acting so bizzare
Your world is so inviting
Playing really cool
And looking so mysterious honey
Your every day is full of sunshine
But into every life a little rain must fall

No problem
Uh
Be cool now

Anyone who imagines
They can blind you with science
Bully you all over
With property and finance
But you have the position
To call the shots and name the price honey
You found success and recognition
But into every life a little rain must fall

Flo Jo

You lead a fairy tale existance
But into every life a little rain must fall

Be cool
Hah
Kiss kiss

Others seem to think
You are over dramatising
Problems at work
So it's hardly suprising
There's little you can do
To alter their opinions honey
You want a clean reputation
But now you're facing complications
'Cos into every life a little rain must fall

Be cool
Get serious
Alright
Play it nice and cool

Play it nice and cool
That's good
One more time
Aha
I like it

You've got to wait a minute, wait a minute!
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: "Mr. Postman" by The Carpenters *TAKE YO MAMA OUT!*
Topic: Ordinary Life
It's been awhile, thats what I ALWAYS say.

Now for a recap. Matt gave me a note Tuesday, he asked me out in it! That's the second one this semester. Bojangles is the gentleman's woman, know what I mean! Even though matt is super shy, and not exactly a hunk, I think he deserves a chance. I told him that I wasn't sure I wanted to be his girlfriend, but that I wanted to go on a date with him. We're thinking about next friday. This is what I was waiting for all summer. Get me sum of that man!

"We're gonna take your mama out all night, yea, we'll show her what it's all about. We'll get her jacked up on some cheap champagne, we'll let the good times all roll out. And if the music ain't good, well it's just too bad, we're gonna sing along no matter what. Because the dancers don't mind at the new orleans if you tip 'em and they make a cut."

OH, i LOVE it. I went to another lecture last night. It was on cancer research and developement. There was only one speaker, but it was interesting, ask me about it if you want to know who. I waited so long to get his autograph. All these old people were there, and I was trying to be polite. They were taking full advantage of me, like skipping. There was this random guy standing next to me, who was also waiting to get his signed. He started talking to me, it was kind of cool. Maybe he was hitting on me? Oh well, who cares, I liked him.

I found out today his name is joe or something, Mr. Cooley says he's smart. I'm going to this astronomy thing tomorrow for extra credit. It's gonna be so cool. And maybe joe will be there...I hope i don't sound like a shit for talking about other guys while I'm partially involved with matt, I mean, If I'm not his gf, its open ground, but I SWEAR I'm a very loyal gf.

Dude, the t.v. is still on and theres some evangelical show on or something. This is weird, they're like praying and touching their sores to make them heal. They're like, naming all of these illnesses "Someone with pancreatic problems, those problems are all being healed right now." They're just naming all these problems, like fortune tellers. I wonder if there really is someone out there getting healed. I plan to read the entire Bible some day, I'll prolly start during Christmas Break.

I've got to finish up that paper this weekend, so I can chill next week. I need some sleep too, so I can dream about boys. ^^.........

good night

-BoJaNgLeS^^

NO ZEN!

If the music ain't good, well, it's just too bad, we're gonna sing along no matter what
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: "Take your mama out" by Scissor Sisters
Topic: Ordinary Life
Hmm, these guys are weird enough, yet tasteful enough, to attract my attention. I'm talking about tonights featured band of course.

Thursday night was okay, mom decided I couldn't go because I had so much homework, which I didn't like because If I didn't go, Cassie would have to go, and that wouldn't be fair to her. Then it turned out that the leader meeting wasn't even this week, it was actually the next. I stayed up doing work late anyways, because I'm a good-for-nothing, sorry-ass. And now I'm in even more shit because an extra-credit lecture is scheduled this thursday, and I'm gonna get a load of crap for dodging yet another meeting.

Friday was awesome, except for the fact that I felt unattractive because I went shit-house casual to school. Jeans, black shirt, hoodie. Plus I was in need of major showering, and I felt grungy. But I had the choice between washing hair and getting in that extra homework time, which I desperately needed. But Friday wasn't alltogether unpleasant, absolutely not. The FAIR was friday! Mom picked me, cass, and sam up from school, and took us to her work. I was pissed man, wtF? She had agreed to drop us off at coaches. But she didn't want to because she would have gotten in trouble with her boss, which made NO sense, because she like, passed it on the way back to work. I acted quickly and persuaded her to take us, but she ended up getting her co-worker to take us, some dude, but it was way better than staying at her work.

So we went to coach's. It was cassie's first time, and Sam and I were having our third. Some new guy was working there though, which was strange. It was this guy named micheal. He was kinda odd, but cool still. He couldn't make a decent frappe though, which was dissapointing. He was filling in for coach, who had something to attend to. Ironically enough, coah showed up right after Micheal had finished our order. *sob* *sips frappe and grimaces* We got The whole crew to autograph a brochure and then we walked home and got ready for the fair.

Mom and Richard went with us. It was so weird. All these kids that were my age were SMOKING! They were just waltzing around with cigarettes and cigars, smoking like it was NOTHING! And the worst part was, NOBODY WAS SAYING ANYTHING! The cops were walking around and not saying a word. Besides all that, I rode all the rides, even the scary ones, oh my gosh. Even one that spun around and went completely upside down. Oh man, and guess what, that JACKASS Jacob was there! After he had told me he wasn't going. He saw me too, he even saw me with Matt J. on the Ferris Wheel! I hope he got jealous, that bastard. Yes, I did ride the ferris wheel, for my first time ever. And it was with a BOY! Oh yea! I'm good. Ryan went thursday, so he wasn't there. They had this game where you threw a ball in this bowl floating in a kiddie pool and you won a bunny! I wanted a bunny so badly, I mean, they were so uber-cute, it was crazy. But The bowls were so pamafied it was impossible. Clint tried to win me one, and so did matt, but neither of them were successful. I didn't mind, I would've gotten bored with a pet bunny anyways. I think matt was a little bothered that he couldn't get me one, but he's a nervous guy. Poor Matt. I got a vibe that Bradley Frye liked me too, which isnt a good thing. I think Bradley is "special" for real. Chris didn't come, *sigh of relief* He would have probably wanted to make out on the ferris wheel, which sounds very appealing to me, except for the fact that I don't want to make out with chris. That's about all that happened at the fair. ^^

I came home and hung out with sam. I was tired so I went to bed and woke up at 830 am. I finished up most of my homework and got ready, and Bryan went to bowling league practice. On the way back Richard picked up Kristina and Liz and we went shopping. I got a nurse's jacket, some weiro knit socks, some fishnet stockings, a black jacket, and...I think thats it, wait no, I got some superman panties. Thats a funny word...PANTIES! ^^ I got a really soft black hat too ^^. I LOVE IT!

Then I came home, nothing much more happened. We dropped sam off. I want some ice cream

-BoJaNgLeS^^

Some zen, for once:

Take Your Mama
Scissor Sisters

When you grow up / Livin' like a good boy oughta
And your mama / Takes a shine to her best son
Something different / All the girls they seem to like you
Cause you're handsome / Like to talk and a whole lot of fun

But now your girl's gone a missin'
And your house has got an empty bed
The folks'll wonder 'bout the wedding
They won't listen to a word you said

[Chorus 1]
Gonna take your mama out all night
Yeah we'll show her what it's all about
We'll get her jacked up on some cheap champagne
We'll let the good times all roll out
And if the music ain't good, well it's just too bad
We're gonna sing along no matter what
Because the dancers don't mind at the New Orleans
If you tip 'em and they make a cut

Do it
Take your mama out all night
So she'll have no doubt that we're doing oh the best we can
We're gonna do it
Take your mama out all night
You can stay up late 'cause baby you're a full grown man

It's a struggle / Livin' like a good boy oughta
In the summer / Watchin' all the girls pass by
When your mama / Heard the way that you'd been talking
I tried to tell you / That all she'd wanna do is cry

Now we end up takin' the long way home
Lookin' overdressed wearin' buckets of stale cologne
It's so hard to see streets on a country road
When your glasses in the garbage
And your Continental's just got towed

[Chorus 2]

I'm getting old and I need something to rely on....
Mood:  cool
Now Playing: "Somewhere only we know" by Keane
Topic: Ordinary Life
Monday, me and sam walked thru vass again and then mom picked us up and we got our report cards. Of course trumpets sounded and streamers flew when mom saw bryans average grades, leaving my straight A's sitting there all complaisant. She took us home, and we scrounged for all the change we could find, and then she dropped us off at outreach. I was in the mood to have some new stuff. I bought a sonic uniform, like, the hat and the shirt, and I got a janitor uniform. Well, its some kind of service industry uniform, its cool, but it makes my ass look big, and not in a good way. Plus sam gave me a bunch of her cool old stuff from her house.

Tuesday was okay, I wore my sonic uniform, and I can't remember tuesday now...If I remember anything important, I'll tell you. Wednesday was lame too. I almost flashed my whole health class, which was not cool, most definately LAME.

Gosh, being at a loss for words SUCKS. Mrs. Matthews got mad at me yesterday for mimicking her, I felt bad. I fucked up my science test, thats what you get for choosing the phone over the homework. I actually worked up the guts to talk to jacob AGAIN! I asked him if he was going to the fair, boy did that take some work. Bad News is, he isn't going, and probably doesnt care about me anyways. No guys care about me, sept maybe willums, but that's as a friend.

I'm trying to get back on top of things like I was first semester. I've been feeling shitty and wanting to quit lately, but I can't. Waking up a 5 everyday just to spend the best times of my life listening to old people and then after straining my intellect, coming home to more work and an irritating family just isn't fun. Cassie says I should find somewhere secluded to do my work, which isn't really a choice since this faggot-ass house is so tiny and going outside doesn't seem appealing or helpful since Herb, the landlord, is sawing wood and crap. Plus then you dump all those extra-curricular things on top, AND my social life, I have one of those going too. It's overwhelming. Of course THEN you have to remember that I have NO opportunities to positively channel my creativity, so the morale is down most of the time. And I'm constantly pining over guys, what a waste of time.

And don't even mention the sleep, I know for sure I don't get enough of that.

HOLY CRAP??! I'M ONLY IN HIGHSCHOOL?!

Gawd..... I miss daddy... *sob*

This is a good song, at least I've always got my music ^^ *lightning bolt strikes cd player*
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! ><

Today I have to go to some bitch-ass area meeting for scouts, thats like...from 630 pm to 9 pm, holy shat man, I NEED THAT TIME! Poor sam has to come since shes staying the night...lol, sorry sammers. That just means I'll have to work even HARDER! *sob*

And I HATE,
all those boys that I like,
cuz even though,
you're the light of my life,
you're killing me,
slowly but surely,
you're killing me,
WITH THAT BIG POINTY KNIFE!

The torture is neverending, I've got MORE work to do.

=BoJaNgLeS^^

p.s. My BIRTHDAY is coming up! I'm planning on having a co-ed-only girls spend the night thing. I want LOTS OF PRESENTS FROM THRIFT STORES! ^^ Any thing darkness related would be kickass too!